A name written in the stars: from Medina to my heart

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It was our second-to-last night in Medina before departing for Umrah in Mecca. Our travel agency, Busyra Holidays, arranged for us to have dinner at a fish restaurant outside the Nabawi Mosque area. We traveled there by bus, and the experience was quite exquisite.


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While we were enjoying our meal, an 8-year-old boy approached us, selling bottles of juice made by his mother. What stood out was that he could speak Bahasa Melayu—a skill he had picked up on his own, knowing that many Malaysians often dined in the area. When we asked how he learned the language, he humbly replied, “YouTube.”


We were impressed, not just by his resourcefulness but also by his purpose. He was helping his mother by selling the juices. Throughout our brief conversation, he radiated innocence and humility. He barely made eye contact, which further emphasized his shy and modest demeanor.


Curious, I asked him his name. He said, “Nawwaf.”


At that moment, I turned to my husband, Pan, and said, “If we ever have a boy, let’s name him Nawwaf.” Pan agreed, on one condition: the first name must be Azmi to honor his family’s naming tradition.


Months later, when I was pregnant and found out Baby A was a boy, I began compiling a list of potential names—some suggested by others, and some that Pan and I liked. Among the shortlisted names were Iskandar, Qayyum, and Nawwaf.


Pan preferred classic names and even suggested Lekiu (inspired by Hang Lekiu from Melaka’s legend). However, we eventually dropped it since it lacked meaning. I initially leaned toward Qayyum because it is one of Allah’s 99 names, mentioned in powerful Quranic verses. But after Nawwaf came to mind, it began to overshadow the other options.


As the pregnancy progressed, I started calling Baby A by the shortlisted names. Interestingly, he only kicked when I said “Nawwaf.” After several occurrences, I shared this with Pan and told him my preference for Nawwaf over Qayyum. However, we decided to wait until he was born to make the final decision.


On 25 December 2024, after the C-section and during my post-recovery observation, I looked at our newborn—our second child—and knew in my heart that Nawwaf was the right name.


Later, I scrolled through my gallery, searching for the video of the young boy we met in Medina. That’s when I realized something extraordinary: we had met Nawwaf on 24 December at around 9 PM Medina time, which was 25 December at 2 AM in Malaysia. Coincidence? I don’t think so.


Exactly one year before our second-born entered this world, Allah had placed the name Nawwaf in my heart through the encounter with this sweet boy in the heart of Medina. It felt predestined, and it felt right.


To honor this beautiful journey, we added a twist to the spelling—Nawwafh—to make it uniquely ours.


Azmi Nawwafh


Azmi (عزمي): Meaning “my determination” or “my resolve” in Arabic, symbolizing strength, willpower, and steadfastness.

Nawwafh (نواف): Meaning “lofty,” “high,” or “elevated,” reflecting nobility, distinction, and an elevated status.


Dear Nawwafh,


This is not just the story of how we chose your name—it is a reflection of Allah’s beautiful plan, the way He destined and placed this name in my heart just for you.


May you grow to embody the true essence and meaning of your name, a gift filled with love and faith.


With all my heart,

Mama.

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 Dear Baby A,

It’s been 1 week and 3 days since you came into this world, and though you weren’t born on 21 December 2024, as I had mentioned in my earlier post, your arrival was nothing short of extraordinary.


On Friday, 20 December 2024, just a day before my scheduled elective caesarean, we went for one final scan with the doctor. To our surprise—yes, even the doctor’s!—your head had turned down and was engaged. It was an unexpected twist, but we decided to embrace it and give normal delivery a chance.


We scheduled the induction for Monday, 23 December 2024, and I was admitted that same day. With a set date, things felt calmer. We prepared as best as we could—cleaning the house, organizing everything for your big sister Kakak Iryss, and ensuring Atta and Tok Ma were ready to care for her while Abah and I were at the hospital.


But as things sometimes go, the plan didn’t unfold as smoothly as we’d hoped.


When I arrived on 23 December, the wards were full, so we were placed in the labor room instead. The induction began, and contractions followed. For the first six hours, the pain was manageable. I did yoga, exercised on the birthing ball, walked, squatted—everything I could to encourage dilation.


But progress was slow. After six hours, there was no dilation, and the contractions were weaker than expected. The doctors gave me a second dose of induction, and this time, the pain was intense. They administered a painkiller shot that finally allowed me to rest through the night.


The next day, 24 December, came and went. Despite the last dose of the induction tablet, I was only 2 cm dilated. The pain was unbearable, yet the contractions weren’t strong enough. By 4 PM, the doctor presented me with a choice: proceed with a caesarean or try a drip induction one last time.


I decided to give it one more shot—but with an epidural this time. The procedure gave me some relief, and they started the drip induction. I waited, hoping, praying. But after six hours, there was no progress. I was still at 2 cm.


And so, we moved forward with the emergency caesarean.


Initially scheduled for midnight, we had to wait our turn as an appendectomy took precedence. The epidural dosage was increased, and finally, at exactly 2:00 AM on 25 December 2024, you entered the world.


The moment I heard your first cry, tears streamed down my face. After everything—needles, contractions, inductions, painkillers, exhaustion—you were here. My heart was full, overwhelmed by gratitude and love.


This caesarean experience was different, one that tested my strength and faith in ways I never imagined. There were moments I thought my time had come, but Alhamdulillah, we made it through. That’s a story I’ll share another day, inshaAllah.


For now, this is your birth story, and oh, Baby A, it’s already one for the books.


We’ve chosen a name for you, and I’ll reveal it in my next post.


Till then, know this: Mama loves you deeply, more than words can express.


With all my heart,

Mama


P.S. We didn’t celebrate Christmas; it just so happened that you were born on December 25, which falls on the Christmas public holiday.