Wedding is postponed, till further notice.

It's June,

it should be almost two months before my wedding day

but with all the uncertainties happening,

with the pandemic,

I don't know when will the wedding be now.

I guess it should be postponed till further notice.

All my family members are back in Malaysia,

except for my dad.

His service is still needed in Ashgabat and they don't wanna

replace him with someone else

and the international border is still closed

and Turkmenistan doesn't want to open their airspace too,

so basically he cannot return back.

They said I could opt for 

online nikah via skype or whatever

but lol I ain't getting married without my dad!

I'm kinda sad in a way that we have to postpone 

an event that we've planned for a year.

But I'm also glad it happens 

1. before I print my wedding invitation

2. before we buy doorgifts

3. before we pay an amount of money for the food

Although many deposits have been made but at this point of time,

I guess every wedding is postponed,

everyone is facing almost the same problems as I do.

I'm glad I don't have to deal with so many parties

as most of the things are handled by my wedding planner

and they're super cooperative.

They even came to my house,

to check on me,

to discuss on further actions

and to basically to comfort me 

because they know that I could be overwhelmed by the situation.

But I still proceed with my wedding dress,

just in case if my dad returns earlier,

if government allows gathering for more than 20 pax.

At this point,

I'm hoping and praying for the best.

Please pray for me too, okay?

Thank you <3

 

Dear all, how are you?

Dear my beloved readers, 

how are you? Really, how are you?

I often treat my blog like a monologue

because sometimes I forgot that it could also be a medium 

to actively engage with my readers.

So, how are you?

The world holds such interesting events these days.

With the on-going pandemics, to the never-ending racism issues.

Yes, I feel exhausted too.

One issue after another, global issues are worrisome.

When I feel like it's not my position to speak up about things, 

I'll remember my younger self,

who'd speak up about everything that needs to be changed.

I've seen so many people

creating a community that will make those

who are oppressed feel loved and safe.

I'm proud of all my wonderful friends and acquaintances who started

the movements and communities.

I learned a lot from them.

On top of all that, 

I know we still have personal issues to deal with.

The pandemics have restricted our movements and we couldn't cross 

the state border to meet our family, be it on Ramadhan or during Eid. 

But I hope you still video call your family and friends,

getting creative with photo editing to include everyone in the family photo

because FOMO is real.

Somehow I'm glad this pandemic manages to bring us much closer,

although we're physically apart.

It brings us closer, we bond more.

My family would video call everyday during Ramadhan, so we'd feel 

like we're having iftar together.

My friends and I would recite Quran together and they did workout too!

in a way, the pandemic does bring us together.

Yes, so many things are happening.

Yes, we have to fight for changes.

Yes, we're fighting the battles.

But when you're in despair, feeling like there's no hope for tomorrow,

and the uncertainties keep you awake at night,

do remember the good things that once happened/those that are still happening in your life.

And please know that you can always reach out to me if you need help.

I may not be able to help you financially that much, but I'll try to be a good listener

and hopefully I could advise you in matters I can advice on.

Please know that I care about my readers

and I hope this blog will be one of the mediums that will make you feel safe <3

Lots of love,

Aliah