Malay songs back then

I felt like listening to Malay traditional songs

and I started to listen to Dikir Puteri by Noraniza Idris and

it led me Hati Kama by Siti Nurhaliza feat Noraniza Idris

and I clicked Nirmala song by Siti Nurhaliza.

I am in love with this song.

Malay songs back then had so much of lessons 

and they're great songs.

I can't comment on their musics and melody

because I am not an expert in this field.

But all in all, those songs never get old to me.

These lines slapped me hard.

Sesungguhnya berkasihlah
Di antara manusia
Perindah segala kata-kata
Bahagia itu janjinya

Mengapa kita sengketa
Rentaslah jalan terbuka
Tanpa dusta

It holds so much of lesson,

about the world that we're facing now.

If people are continuing to produce these kind of songs,

I am pretty sure, in a way, we manage to shape a better generation.

No no, I am not a doctor

Someone said, if I were a doctor,
I will be the strict one,
haha well I will be.

I will force people to take care of their health,
but I won't do the same hahaha.

My parents and my grandparents keep on
complaining to me,
why am I not a doctor?

Well,
I had enough of biology.
I don't really like that subject,
I prefer physics.

Being a doctor is such a noble job,
you'll help people and etc.
But I wouldn't want to be a doctor for
my entire life.

I want to have my own business.
I want to do something that I love.

Wait,
I don't know what I want -.-'
I know, but I am not clear
of my path to get there.

Rule of A Gentleman

This is one of my favourite.

I have another 379 rules that I agree with :P

How I see myself

I can be very reserved and talk to only certain people.
I may look friendly but I can be unfriendly too.

I mean,
I choose to open up to only certain people.

If you're the chosen one,
you're very lucky :)

Business

I've deactivated (in 30 days it will officially be deleted)

my twitter.

For business purposes,

you may email me at this address.

aliahnazarudin@yahoo.com

Social Networking Sites

At times,
you wouldn't want to get exposed to
the public.
It's not because of I don't like people.
It's just that,
the society nowadays could be too judgmental
and believe in false facts
and tend to be really stupid
for making small issues, big.

Ugh.
I am tired of reading people's
argument at the comment sections,
acting like they're so intelligent.

No,
I am not saying I am that smart
or genius,
I just think that
there's better medium to channel
your thoughts.

Stop acting stupidly.
People are laughing on us, Malaysians.

All the boys and the girls

"Relationship is meant for two,

and some people just do not know 

how to count."

 Oh well, I can teach you how to.

When Peter Pan took Wendy to Neverland,

the mermaids were mad at Wendy,

Tiger Lily was flirting with Peter Pan and Wendy was truly jealous 

and refused to talk to Peter Pan for a while and Tinker Bell just kept on wanting

to divert Peter Pan's attention away from Wendy,

do you feel the kind of pain when you watched that?

Guess what,

you don't.  

Because you're either Tiger Lily, Tinker Bell or those mermaids.

I am Wendy,

that's why I understand.

And deep in our heart,

we all know, 

Peter Pan will always choose Wendy.

I am very thankful for that.

Rejection oh wow

I hardly face rejection.

I don't face rejection all this while because
I constantly close my heart from
having to forget the things I've forgiven.

And today,
when I choose to let go of my anger and sadness,
and get things better than before,
someone just closed the heart from
accepting that.

It's me to be blamed.

Rejection does hurt,
so badly.

Oh wow,
I'm impressed.

10 Tips To Know

This isn't a TOK article where
I would tell you all the ways of knowing
and areas of knowledge.

This isn't a typical article on how to blablabla,
no it isn't.

I screwed up.

And I am sorry.

I know my "I'm sorry" won't heal the pain,
but yeah that's what my heart is saying all this while.

I am just overly sensitive and that harms me.
That truly sickens my life and I just have to get rid of it.

And so,
I read loads of articles,
on how to assure myself,
that I still belong to someone's heart.

I'm reading ways to heal my green eyes,
that's insane, right?

Yeah, I am putting effort to heal
this virus.

"If one constantly wants to choose someone as the other half,
no matter how big the argument you've been having to deal with,
stay."

And this is what I have been holding on,
all this while.

Tom Yam o Tom Yam

Last nite, the game was so intense.
Malaysia vs Thailand.

Malaysia fought hard,
we won the match,
but we lost by aggregate
and so we lost the cup.

Till the 80th minute,
Malaysia led by 3 points,
then the last 10 minutes,
Thailand just buckled up so
well, the scored 2 points,
made them win by 1 aggregate.

So close to win, right?

That's life.
Somehow, I want to take my life
in Thailand perspective and
take my life lesson from Malaysia perspective.

The lesson is,
to strive for your best,
every time.
So you won't feel regret when you're
that close to victory.

The life part is,
you should always
believe in yourself and
keep striving and never lose hope.

Even if you think,
you don't have the chance to win anymore.

Because the truth is,
what you know, is bounded by what you think you know.

Allah knows best.

source : only I know

Result Day-ay-ay

The feeling when you're having breakfast
while scrolling twitter and you saw people
tweeting about sem 3 results and whoosh
I lost appetite, in fact I lost my appetite for the whole day.

I checked my result and my heart broke to pieces.
I'm so frustrated with my result,
people might say
there're always people getting worse than me,
but for my personal satisfaction,
I don't feel satisfied at all.

I dropped three points as compared to last semester
and I am so mad at myself for not scoring my
chemistry paper and I also do not get 7 for econs.

I mean,
ugh.

People are cheering for something they've longed for,
I know.

Guess,
that's all from me in my mourning session.

I'm done with semester 3.
I'm gonna show you
at least of 40 points for my IB.

Safe Heaven

I've always loved it when Nicholas Sparks novel
became a movie.

And I love Safe Heaven more
because a part of it is just so related to me.

Well,
I have a thing on letter.
Writing letters to people,
for them to read after I died,

I might have a thing on it,
but I wouldn't want it to happen.
I don't want to die when people
around me need me,
But we'll never know when death would come, right?

No,
I won't tell what I feel,
entirely about the movie here
because I've promised myself
to share it with someone else first.
But he seems to be too sleepy to listen
to my story :P
(Post-gym session effect)

Okay,
next time :)

Exam fever is not over bae

I am gonna get my Semester 3 results in 3 days,
I know it will not be as good as last sem's results,
as much as I want it to be a good one.

I am such a silly girl,
for not reading well the Alberta requirement,
they need me to have outstanding sem 1,2,3 results
and IB exam ofc.

This is extra scary.

But yeah, we shall not look back and mourn about it,
because truth is, life goes on.

I have approximately 1 week to settle all my homework
and study, which I know I can't do them all.

I need to study PHYSICS,
I screw up like shit.

Out of all those shitty regrets I feel,
I am more regretful when I tend to be ignorant.

AS is so soon,
and I didn't know about it, that's awful.

I should have studied together
and not only dreamed of things
that we wish to happen.

Miracles do happen but only for once,
or twice.

I need to study hard and work hard.
We need to study hard and work hard.

Now,
we shall build bridge that leads us
to a brighter future.

Tourists

You know you're special when someone would treat you

ice cream just to say sorry for the mistakes he made :)

I like this picture because the red building behind us

made the picture look extra HD

and we both agreed to nominate this as the picture of the day yeah!

Only God knows when will be the next time we're gonna meet.

Anyhow, LDR isn't that bad after all.

#imnotalwayssentimentallikethis

#pardonmysweetness

I am scared

I am scared when people are mad at me,
at times I can be very childish,
so I tend to take everything so lightly,
but in fact, it matters most to everyone else.

I am scared of losing someone
I love for the mistakes I've made,
because sometimes I take everything so seriously
and get hurt over silly stuff.

I am scared, it makes me cry.
And today,
I cry so badly.

I have never cried and sobbed till that extent of weeping.

It's all because I'm scared.

I am sorry.

A little

Never doubt someone for his good intention,
never ask someone to change herself just to suit your lifestyle.

Never have trust issue with yourself,
never promise things you can't fulfil.

Cause if you do, if I do,
our hearts will break,
a little.
Or a lot.

Malay novel

I have nothing against Malay novels,

I just hardly read them except 

if that's teacher's task.

Based on what people told me,

the summary of the novels they read,

I think,

the stories are quite okay,

I mean pretty much related to my life,

as Malay,

but the story line was a bit cliche (for some novels)

ie, 

rich and poor, fall in love,

they're not allowed to get married because of social status.

or

they are forced to get married.

But I guess, cliche wasn't really the most accurate word,

I use cliche cause I have no other vocab to describe it.

I guess, 

that's the social norm among Malays,

and I don't blame the writers for having that idea,

as we tend to write what's on our mind

and what we think is shaped by the surrounding.

Oh well.

I guess my story might be a bit cliche in a sense,

I fall for the one I used to hate.

But guess what?

The story is spectacular, extra-ordinary.

I am so gonna have those lines to promote my novel, hahaha.

A curse or a gift, in the making.

Stay tune.

2015 Resolutions, whoops!

My 2015 resolution is just as big as the world.

First, I have 4 months to go before my final IB exam.

I will just do whatever it takes to get a minimum of 40 points,

for my IB exam.

Next, 

I will make sure myself getting placement in Canadian university,

and fly off in August (cannot wait, I am so excited!)

I would also want to get extra and special scholarships from the university, yeay!

As much as I know, 

I will cry so badly at the airport,

when my family has to send me off,

and I will be in a long distance relationship

with the British boy, 

I just have to stay strong, it's for my brighter future!

Oh well,

I also want to spend more time with my family (and plus one),

and create remarkable memories with them all.

2015 Raya,

I want to go to my friends' houses weeeee!

While waiting for IB results,

I will learn how to cook variety of Malay cuisines,

for my own benefit in the future.

I would also plan to have

a fashion blog for petite girls,

(cause you see, they hardly embrace petite girls, 

only tall girls got the attention, that's really unfair!)

When I reach Canada,

I will spend my weekend going to travel around the place

I've stayed,

and include that in my travel blog.

For a longer break,

I will travel to different states

and maybe have a short getaway to the USA!

I wish to score every exam, so I will add up savings!

Oh well, 

I need to save because after my graduation,

I will have to buy house, car, give my parents money,

get married!

So many commitments are ahead, I cannot screw up.

What more?

Oh I will send postcard back home

and to the British boy, heh.

I am just too excited!

Do this, for living!

Suddenly, everything clicks.
I was just going through the net, finding things that
would make me forget all the pain I felt inside my bone.
Then I just had a wonderful and brilliant idea on what to do for living.

I like blogging.
I like taking pictures.
I like editing videos.
I want to travel around the world, so badly.

Can't you see, the perfect inductive (or deductive I can't really differentiate) logic here.

People!
I will definitely have a travel blog (or vlog if I have extra time,
knowing I am an engineering student ftw!)

You see,
I don't want to be a whole time engineer,
talking to machines and invent new things for the rest of my life!

I want to see wanders,
I want to witness God's creations around the world,
I want to travel!

The resolution of me being an engineer, will definitely
be there, since I need money to travel.

So,
here's to a brighter future!

Wedding Planning

It scared me yesterday when my parents were having serious conversation
regarding my wedding.
I mean, hello parents, I am not even 20 and I haven't finished my IB Programme,
I am certainly not ready for this matter, naayy no way.

I always talk about my wedding theme and wedding preparation
and honeymoon places, but not a serious discussion about it.

Before I get married I need to have :
-Future husband
-Degree
-At least a condominium, or any type of house to live in
-A car (I have my own preference here)
-RM50k in my bank account
-Given my parents some big amount of money
-A job
*Arrangement is not in order*

And based on the lists above, I only have the first one.
So I have 6 years to get all the things done.
6 more years to go!

Alberta and New Brunswick!

I have received email from these unis,
and they mentioned that my results are outstanding enough to be admitted to their unis,
which is indeed a great blessing for me.
Now, I have to post my hard copy official transcript from college
in order to get my official offer letter!

So many procedures for the university application,
I almost give up in the midst of application process,
but peeps, don't ever ever give up on your dream!

I don't really mind which uni will accept me or not,
I only need one official unconditional offer to secure my future,
anyhow, I still have my own preference here.
Haha, favouritism may not get out of my way I presume *wink*

LAter!

Plan

I have so many plans, like lists of plans that I want to do through out my life,
but if Allah has better plans for me, I will accept them, whole heartedly :)

Getaway :D

I've spent my weekend with my ultimate family.
We didn't exactly plan our weekend getaway, it's just spontaneous.
We went to PD for a short time, just to take pictures and entertain Adlina with
her crab finding.
And we made our way to funfair and ride on swing,
 I wasn't expected the swing to be spinning that fast.

And today, we're in Putrajaya, going to IOI Mall and the place was
damn crowded, and so we made a way to Alamanda and had Chakri tom yam for lunch.
Oh yeah, tom yam is on me!

When I was in PD, it made me thinking.
I was so close, yet so far away from Peter Pan.
What a sad time, of being in the same place
but not getting the chance to meet.

And I merengek about it to my mum till now.
The kind of regret that I feel, when I didn't fight for a short meeting.
It's not that I didn't want to, but I just didn't know
how to estimate time.
When to meet, can we meet, do we have ample time for that?

I am hoping for the best.


May we have the chance to meet, some time during this holiday.

University

My life gets extra hectic these days because I am so busy with the university application.
I mean, hell yeah I will be busy next year with my
Intensive Revision Program (IRP, like how Kolej Mara Banting students usually call that).
So, I decide to settle everything now.

And so these are the universities that Yayasan would allow me to apply for.

The universities are arranged in order. 

I want to get university placement so badly.

#HopingforabetterSem3Result

My deceiving green eyes

"Those who get jealous easily, are those who care so much."

-unknown

I get jealous easily, like super easily

and it happens to this one particular person only haha!

So, what does it mean?

Sem 3 is o-o-ver!

Semester 3 was a dying semester, I tell you.
I broke down for almost, everyday and life was not full of happiness at all.
You know, when they say about having rainbow after the rain, nayy it wasn't the case
for me, as the rainbow was hiding behind the black clouds, all the time.
Guess the rainbow will only come after my IB Results.
And semester 3 was also the phase where I went out like all the time,
because of my stress, I just need an escapade.
And I know whom I can turn to, you know what I mean.

My family helps a lot, like a lot.

And so, this post is a special to thank all those people that help me
 surviving IB for the third semester :)

Adlina's Birthday :D

To the youngest and most ngada sister in the world,

Happy Upcoming Birthday!

Sadness

Allah will always comfort you

I’ve been so empty these days, I have my family, my friends, 

I’ve got extra time to complete my work at times, 

but there’s still emptiness in me.

Then I realised that I’ve not talked to Allah for a very long time. 

I did pray everyday, but at times I feel like I am doing it, 

for the sake of doing it, because it’s just my routine

 and this shouldn’t be the case.

One day, Allah has poured me with sadness, 

but I know He doesn’t mean to hurt me, 

instead He wants to give me some lessons.

When you care so much, it hurts. 

It hurts more when no one appreciates you.  

Well, maybe they don’t mean it, 

they do appreciate you 

but their kind of appreciation can’t be felt by you.

So, I cried. I cried because of that petty things. 

Maybe I’ve been holding my grudge for so long, 

then one day, I bursted.

I asked forgiveness from Allah, 

because maybe I’ve done so many mistakes

 or maybe I’ve not been that dependent on Him all this while, 

so in my prayer, I cried.

I felt so guilty, it’s like me talking to Him only when I’m sad, 

and hardly talk to Him when He has given me 

so much of joy and happiness in my life.

But the best part is, I know He’ll still listen to me even

 He already knew the thing I told Him.

Then I took the Quran, and recited it, and read its meaning. 

“Dan janganlah kamu berasa lemah, 

dan jangan pula bersedih hati, 

sebab kamu paling tinggi darjatnya, 

jika kamu orang yang beriman.” 

(Al-‘Imran 3:139)

Masha Allah. 

The first ayat I read, He already comforted me.

 Somehow, we don’t have to wait for years or hours to wait for His reply.  

In a split second, He will comfort you.

All this while, I shouldn’t wait for people to say sorry. 

I shouldn’t ask for their appreciation, I shouldn’t demand for them to comfort me, 

because Allah will. He will always be there for me, when no else isn’t. 

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. 

 For giving me the pleasure of thankfulness 

after pouring me with a small portion of sadness in my heart.

 Alhamdulillah.

Update!

Well, so many things that I have to update now.
I got tonnes of assignments due next week, I have homework,
I have lists of things that I haven't revised yet and yet I am still blogging
and tumblring.

Oh wait, did I just mention tumblr?

Yeah, I have it, but I am not ready to publish it, haha.

Pretty much like it.
LAter :)

ps, there's significant meaning behind that L&A.

Of Pepper Spray

Life is pretty hectic these days, I have to do so many essays of thousands words

and note that, they are all about distinctive subjects, ie Math, TOK Physics. Crazy.

I don't quite know how I can write an essay on Math,

well I just did and I had to make it more math.

I don't know how does it make sense when your number of words is measured based on numbers,

like 12 is considered as how many words, yeah crazy!

And physics, pfft.

I have to do 4000 words essay and I  stuck at 2487.

Mindblown.

That's pretty much of an IB life :)

Oh yeah!

Tests!

We have a lot of tests, that kills my mind.

But! Haha like how rainbow comes after the rain,

I pretty much can see the rainbow of mine.

Well, that's not really the permanent rainbow,

because those essays-tests-quizzes-repeat are still going on huhu

but one of my wishing lists had come true :D

In my previous blog,

I kept on harping on my dream wanting to watch a basketball match etc,

and yeah, that dream had come true few months ago and yesterday!

(Note that it's not the ordinary basketball game like you watch in the tv 

or like what I watched in the Philippines, it's just different)

Indeed, we all need that pause from doing any serious business,

and have our little escapade.

And yeah, you're my little escapade.

The Hand With Henna

 

Yesterday wasn't a great start of the week for me.
I got diarrhea and I went to the toilet idk for  how many times per hour
and I ended up looking like a zombie in class.

Then, my teacher realised that I was sick and decided to send me to clinic
straight away.

So to the clinic, I went.

At the clinic counter, there were two ladies asking me to register etc,
well the normal procedure when you go to the clinic.

Then I told them that I have my insurance, so I wouldn't have to pay.
So yeah, settled.

One of the ladies asked me,
"sakit apa?"

The shy side of me would definitely
wanted to be really polite and
wouldn't want to tell her straight away
that I went to the toilet because (you know why you went to the toilet,right?)

So I told her my minor reason why I went to the toilet; I vomited for several times.

And she looked very idk happy (?)

Then she asked me,
"Dah berumah tangga? Baru kahwin la ni eh?"

OHMYGOD
why on earth people would ask me that?!

I mean, I look very petite and I don't think I look that old to get married.

"Oh tak tak. Saya student lagi."

My weird face remained till I met the doctor,
till I got back to my room.

Then something just rang the bell.

I have the hands with henna, no wonder!
Who would have faced the morning sickness if not the newly wed right?
Or anyone who has got married

In my case, oh no.

That won't happen now.

Define love.

I may sound very lovey dovey lately,
but yeah whatever.
Someone asked me to define love,
because apparently thesaurus definition of love
isn't meaningful enough.
And my definition of love suits every category, I hope so.
Lol.

Love is
when you know you will be scolded for not eating,
yet you still do the same because you know
you are scolded because someone actually cares.

Love is
when you are angry and decide not to talk
to that person, but you can't hold the grudge
for a long time.

Love is
when you share everything with someone
and sometimes you have told them the same
thing for thousand times,
but they still listen to you.

Love is
when you try your best to fulfill someone's need,
no matter how hard it is to do so.

Love is
when you have exams/quizzes/assignments on the next day
but you still spend your time for that someone today.

Love is
when you know you will meet someone
new in the future, but you still decide to stay
because that person is irreplaceable.

Love is
when you smile every time someone mentions his/her name.
(Well this falls under different category of love, ykwim)

Love is
when you have strong telepathy with them.

Love is
when you have someone in your mind while reading
my definition of love.

x

Life, hopes, dreams and everthing that lies in between.

ofgoodandbadthings.blogspot.com

What I do for my best friend

I have so many friends, but those who can truly

understand me are not that many

and Amelia Rosley is definitely one of them.

Decided to make a small surprise birthday celebration

for this girl because throughout my 5 years in ssp

 this girl had always been the master mind for every surprise.

So, I shall do the same this time.

You deserve it.

:)

Love you always x

Happy go lucky?

Why am I so emotional?

Lately, I've been very moody and emotional and I hardly talk.

That's the first stage of depression, they said.

Oh well, I am depressed.

(look at the picture above, I tried so hard to smile)

And I realised talking to someone doesn't really reduce this effect.

What do I do? What do I do?

My moodiness makes me realise that 

some days, people will run away from me,

(not really run, but you know, keep their distance from me)

and I know that's coming.

That makes me even more moody than usual.

Oh yeah, I am scared.

That's the word,

the right emotion.

I am so scared of being left alone, it hurts.

It hurts so badly,

because I know it's coming.

What's coming?

Idk.

See, 

second stage of depression; not knowing what you want in life.

Oh okay, I am not that depressed till I need a psychiatrist,

my brain just scatters around.

My heart and brain don't tolerate well these days.

What do I do? What do I do?

 Some say, it happens when you've been missing someone,

so ew and aw.

Idk.

Maybe it's true too.

 

More and more Amigas are leaving

They are leaving Malaysia for good and will enjoy their three to four years in the USA.

Had been sending them off at the KLIA,

and it never stopped giving me the kind of goosebumps.

Of well, who doesn't want to study abroad?

And the chance has been given for me to prove my worth.

I haven't proven my worth though.

Ayah is right, goals without plans are only dreams and just dreams,

nothing more.

Hmm maybe I should be more realistic and less idealistic. 

Idk which one is better and I'm trying to apply tok concept here but it doesn't work.

God help me.

MM

Muzfira Mahadi :D

Of sleepless nights, sweats, tears and every story that we share

are truly the moments that I treasure most.

She's one of the reasons why I stay in KMB,

and after all,

I wish for a lifetime friendship with this incredible girl.

From KMB to Canada to where ever we belong.

May both of us be able to pursue the dreams of our lives and be the person we wish to be :)

 

Beyond The Horizon

30th of August 2014

That day marked another important event in my life.

Since day 1 I entered KMB, I've always been wanting to join a dance group and perform.

Thank you Suha for giving me the chance to.

Oh well, the dance team is definitely one of the best teams I've been working with.

Biggest thank you to them (Syira, Suha and Faralia) for the memories.

The three dances that we practiced within 2 weeks,

the ballet-ish dance was not that hard though, haha.

And let me share with you about my story, three days before the event.

A thing about me that is so negative is,

 can be very demanding.

Even I try so hard to make it look as if it's a good quality,

trust me it's annoying at times.

I cried damn hard, as if I was prohibited to eat tomyam for the rest of my life,

yes that bad.

I cried because ...

(This may sounded so crazy for the grown ups but little kids would definitely understand me)

No one that I love could come to watch me dancing.

It's a BIG deal for me, ok?!

And so I cried, and cried.

And I didn't have the heart to perform, at all.

But I tried overcoming that, and during the important day ...

*drumrolls*

He came without flowers and glass shoes but regardless, he came!

And that truly made my day :)

And a group of Amigas, one of my strongest support system also came, 

that was just remarkable.

Thanks for the memories.

x

Angel.

It happens like this.  One day, you meet someone and for some reasons, you feel more connected with this stranger, more than anyone else -- closer than to your closest family.

 Perhaps because this person carries an angel within him -- one sent to you for a higher purpose, to teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe every time.

What you must do is to trust that person -- even if he comes hand in hand with pain at times - the reason for his presence will become clearer in due time.

Though here is a word of warning - you may grow in love with this person but you shall remember that maybe he is not yours to keep.

His purpose isn't to save you, but to show you how to save yourself.  And once this is fulfilled, the halo lifts and the angel leaves the body as he exits your life.

He will be a stranger to you once more.

 & so I've met my angel. He teaches me lesson and keeps me safe every time.  I trust him even he comes hand in hand with pain sometimes.
& I grow in love with him & I always remember he is not mine to keep.

But can I ask for something different?
-- For him to stay and be my angel forever.

Soulmates?

"Souls do not have calendars or clocks, 

nor do they understand the notion of time and distance.

They only know it feels right to be with one another."

After You

If I wrote it in a book,
could I shelve it?

If I told of what you took,
would that help?

If I will it,
can I un-feel it,
now I've felt it?

Labyrinth

A labyrinth is not a maze or a puzzle to be solved but a path of meaning to be experienced.

 Its path is circular and convoluted, but it has no dead ends.

 A labyrinth has one entrance -- one way in and one way out.

 When we walk the path, we go around short curves and long curves; sometimes we are out on the edge, sometimes we circle around the center.

 We are never really lost, but we can never quite see where we are going.

Along the path we sometimes move forward with ease and confidence, 

sometimes we creep ahead cautiously, sometimes we find the need to stop and reflect, 

and sometimes we even feel the urge to retreat.

 Indeed, the center is there but our path takes us through countless twists and turns.

Sometimes we are at the heart of our life experiences, sometimes we are at a playful turn; sometimes we share our path with others, and other times we don't. No matter what, we are still on the labyrinth path. It holds all our experiences, in study and in life.

And to draw upon the wisdom of the ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus,

 we need to be aware that what looks like an end point can also be a beginning point.

 Indeed, in so many ways, the labyrinth is like life.

As much as we do not know what the future holds, we must have faith in ourselves.  Because future is not certain and we can never predict it. But all of us know that with great hopes, efforts and endless prayers, we can create the future that we want.  

You.

 I am not sure what exactly the metaphor means.
But here's my theory.
(Note that I am full of theories)

At times I can be very happy-go-lucky,
at times I can be very moody and refuse to talk.

But there'll always be someone that
can give me the "roller coaster-that-only-goes-up" kind of feeling.

That one person that knows
how to make me feel moody
and how to make me feel better again.

And if you're reading this,
you would know.

Wish?

Some said,
you dream of things that you want.
Indeed.

All little girls must be dreaming of
a fairy tale.
Every girl is entertained by movie
that gives her so much of hope,
a false hope.
She hopes that her reality will
look as good as how she imagines it to be.

I am one of those girls.

Many people say I will never
have that kind of story line in my life.
I second that.
I know fairy tale is not where I belong.

And so,
I don't tell them about my dreams.
But I show them.

Indeed, I can't predict my future.
But I can create one.

May you do me a favour?
Please help me.
To create a wonderful one.

Dream of the future?

If dream is the wish that your heart makes,
then do you believe in your dreams?

Dreams can be hints, reminders,
or they can just be another movie that
you wish to watch in the cinema.

But my dreams
are mostly,
hints and ideas;
how to deal with my life.

Even I don't know
what the future holds,
dreams can tell me,
what should I be prepared for.

& for the future sake,
I am still not ready.

Pixie Dust?

When you are reminded to smile to start off your day,

when you are told that you're cute,

when you are reminded to cross the road carefully,

when you are forced to eat after starving for the whole day,

when you know whom to call after having a stressful day,

when you know who will listen to you when you're all in tears,

when you can't sleep because you're too scared and you know who 

will accompany you till you fall asleep,

when you can share the same type of meal and drink,

when you still allocate time for someone no matter how busy you are,

when you know want you wish to see and have in the future,

when you feel sick when he gets sick,

when you cry if he's sad,

when his happiness is your happiness.

Well, you don't really need to say your love.

All those little things do portray that four letter word,

and they're great enough.

ps, I am still sticking to my principle.

--To never say the three words to any guy, except for my life partner :)

Luxurious? No.

Often people think,

a demanding girl is all bad and is a burden.

But hold on, boy.

Let me tell you, 

the good thing about having a demanding girl in your life.

She'll make you work hard, and you'll be satisfied with your hard work.

I don't want to please myself with luxurious stuff,

nor pampering myself with what the royal people always have.

I just favour a portion of satisfaction in me,

after all the hard works and years of struggling.

And if you think

I don't deserve having what I want after achieving what I what to,

then it's okay.

I will reward my own self.

Surprise!

Well, indeed.

Who doesn't like surprises?

Despite it shows how special someone is,

it also helps making something look alive.

Okay, my point is.

At certain time in any relationship,

you will feel bored if there is no something new coming in a way.

Like a very dull movie, having a cliche story line.

You wouldn't want that.

Hence, my brain is generating ideas

to keep this alive.

Because I don't want a cliche life,

and I don't want to have a need to start something new.

What I have now,

is more than enough for me.

& I am thankful for it.

Hiccup and Astrid

A movies is more interesting when you can relate it to yourself.

That's pretty well what I felt

when I watched 

How To Train Your Dragon 2.

I like Hiccup,

despite his stubbornness,

annoyance

and such,

he has this kind of leadership that I adore.

Well,

I like a guy with great leadership skills.

I adore Astrid too,

cause she is the kind of support system that

someone should have.

She believes in him when everyone else doesn't.

My favourite line,

well ofc

"Haha, so funny."

The story behind the line,

is only me and him would know.

*wink*

Toothless.

How To Train Your Dragon 2

Your heart knows what you want, most of the time.

You just need to keep searching for it.

Life can be pretty hard, 

but we need to sacrifice to achieve our dreams.

Good heart is what it takes to win a devil's heart,

because devil always loses to an angel.

Family is what matters most,

and if you have that one friend

that will always be your superb companion,

appreciate him/her.

Because she/he completes your life.

And at times,

we might lose something,

but God will always grant us with something better in return.

We just have to believe in Him.