Today is my 4th day quarantined at home. Nope, not a Covid positive but the symptoms are worse. This is by far the worst fever I experienced in my entire life. My body ache, I was coughing like nobody’s business. I couldn’t sleep, I kept having weird dreams and my daughter, Iryss, who has turned 1 year and 1 month old btw, woke up every 1 hour for feeding. She’s still on breastfeeding and no, a mom couldn’t catch a break. My husband got the fever first, and I got it from him. As much as health is number 1, I feel bad for being absent for work.
Speaking of work, I have switched my career two times in a span of 3 years of working. Yesterday was my third work anniversary and I couldn’t believe I could make it this far because work life for the past 2021 was daunting. From 2019 - 2020, it was the beginning of my career, I switched from engineering to data field and honestly I found what I like. 2021 was when I was forced to be in a position I never expected myself to work in, Digital Marketing. Although the career path if you’re not working in a monopoly company would be bright, I myself found myself in the blackhole. I was clueless, and didn’t receive the kind of support I needed, so I had the worst days of my life. Mind you all of these happened when I was pregnant with Iryss and it just made everything worse.
Allah has heard my prayer and saved me by giving me another chance to switch career and since April 2022, I am an analyst, doing finance stuff. Another field my old self would say you’re kidding me if she knew I’d be joining. But the support system is great, it’s completely new, I could be clueless but alhamdulillah I’m still enjoying it.
My daughter, Iryss has turned one and we had a few celebrations for her, at her school, in Melaka and in PD. Speaking of that, I haven’t posted any pictures from her celebration in PD yet because thank you to MySu and MyQa, we have so many pictures to choose from!
On the same day of my work anniversary, I received my semester two results. I forgot where I was at updating my life on my blog but yes, I’m a part time student at a local university doing Masters in Data Science and alhamdulillah for two semesters in a row I got the Faculty Post-Graduate Award for getting CGPA more than 3.75 every semester.
To some it’s nothing to be proud of, but to me, I’m celebrating this huge milestone because I’m the one facing all the hustles studying as a part time student, full time worker, and on top of all that I’m also a mother. It’s a tough journey and I have two more semesters to go. I need to give myself a break, congratulate my dear self and be proud of this achievement.
Things will get harder from this point onwards but I want myself to remember that if I could survive these two semesters, I could definitely do better in the next two! These two semesters will determine my future as I plan to have another switch in career but probably a jump not a lateral movement.
The company has made it impossible to be promoted and my only hope is to wait for another 4 years before I can change company. As for now, I need to be good at finances and hopefully that knowledge will take me far one day.
Writing is therapeutic especially on days when I have so many things on my mind. I wasn’t as vocal about how I feel as much as I used to when I was younger. I rather keep my opinion to myself. It’s good and bad but I like protecting my inner peace. I will guard it well.
Keeping my circle small, keeping my social media private and didn’t get too much information out there but yeah, I didn’t promote my blog elsewhere now and I hope people would have forgotten about it by now.
