Hey, I'm working now!

It's been a long time that I haven't updated about my personal life on blog.

Blog is the only medium that I don't feel attacked/judged whenever I express/share

about my life. I guess because the community/my reader is just a small group of people

and most importantly, it's for me to write about anything I want.

I graduated on 30th of May 2019, I went for a Europe trip with my family for two weeks

and I spent another month in Montreal, preparing myself to leave the country for good, for at least

7 years haha. 

I went back to Malaysia on the 5th of July and my baby brother got enrolled to his dream university, doing things that he dreamed of doing for ages.

 I went for my Southeast Asia trip adventure with my sister and Iman for another month.

A lot of things happened during the SEA trip, how I wish I could share with all of you

about my amazing trip!

Iman left Malaysia with both sweet and sour memories haha mostly because Iman got sick

at the end of the trip but I'm pretty sure she misses Malaysia already!

On August 10, I had to attend an interview with TNB regarding the job position

that they offered me: Project Team for Data Strategy

and I immediately agreed because their project is really something I'm looking forward to

and the people that interviewed me were also very welcoming and definitely could be great mentors to me.

The remaining of days in August, I had to be in Melaka helping out with my house renovation.

Since my parents are all away, my sister and I had to take over and we had to be the interior designer of our house and trust me, the process wasn't easy. We had to deal with so many people,

dealing with large money figures and basically must be held accountable for every transaction.

That's a lot on our plate.

I also got to deal with my job process - medical checkup etc

and my sister was busy with her visa process.

September 10, I was told to report myself at TNB and it's been an adventure.

I've been attending meetings every day, dealing with vendors and people from different departments,

attending IBM Innovation Summit which is such an eye-opening summit with all the new technologies that are coming to Malaysia

and I got to talk to a lot of high profile people and learn how they think like.

It's been a tiring but an enjoyable week, I would say.

On Friday, I went to KLIA to send my sister off to Toronto. 

She's doing her ACCA there and 

I'm so glad that we managed to deal with every adult thing without our parents around.

Sending off my brother,

dealing with the house issue,

work stuff, sending my sister off.

Drive again!

Adulting.

Oh, I'm also renting a studio and having my own space in the middle of KL.

I can't believe that I would be doing all of these.

I don't know what will happen in the future,

whether I will still talk good about my job after 1 month of working or not

but all I know is I'm glad that I can survive this one month

breathing, alive.

The sacrifice that my family made, to be separated, being away from each other,

we're living in 3 different countries now -

I don't think many could understand the struggle.

People might see all the amazing stuff -

the traveling, the fun times

but the inside stories,

the struggle,

the pain of homesick,

the feeling of longing for a family dinner

after a year/two years of not seeing each other.

I guess being far away from each other isn't always that bad -

we learn how to appreciate every single moment we have

when we're together.

Okay sad stuff aside.

Now, I need to have a new dream.

My brother is my #1 supporter -

and he always wants me to publish a book.

But I told him, idk what book should I write

and I'm becoming a lot less creative these days

but he always believes in me.

I've been listening to podcasts on my way to and back from work

(because of the long LRT commute)

and I realize that I just need to believe in myself.

Believe in the power of working hard to achieve my dream.

Just like what I used to do when I was a little child, a teenager.

I need a new dream. 

Or working hard to achieve the same old dream that I always have.

But for now,

Aliah is a big girl and she's a proud petite malay girl.

Good job, Aliah!

You deserve a pat on the back for surviving this one month of hectic.

And about my dream,

it's still under construction :)