Happy go lucky?

Why am I so emotional?

Lately, I've been very moody and emotional and I hardly talk.

That's the first stage of depression, they said.

Oh well, I am depressed.

(look at the picture above, I tried so hard to smile)

And I realised talking to someone doesn't really reduce this effect.

What do I do? What do I do?

My moodiness makes me realise that 

some days, people will run away from me,

(not really run, but you know, keep their distance from me)

and I know that's coming.

That makes me even more moody than usual.

Oh yeah, I am scared.

That's the word,

the right emotion.

I am so scared of being left alone, it hurts.

It hurts so badly,

because I know it's coming.

What's coming?

Idk.

See, 

second stage of depression; not knowing what you want in life.

Oh okay, I am not that depressed till I need a psychiatrist,

my brain just scatters around.

My heart and brain don't tolerate well these days.

What do I do? What do I do?

 Some say, it happens when you've been missing someone,

so ew and aw.

Idk.

Maybe it's true too.