Tbh,
I am not the type of person that works hard
to be praised.
I don't put efforts to be admired.
I don't like the idea of putting my efforts
into things because I want to have a certain reputation in people's eyes.
I hate it when people judge me that way.
When I was about to be given certain position,
I would be doubting myself.
I never think or feel like I am good enough for the position.
Allah has blessed me with so many things in life.
Everything went smoothly
until I have to make decisions on something.
I am stuck,
between something I like,
or something I should do.
Do I need to sacrifice again for others' benefit?
I feel like my life now
is all about sacrificing myself.
I don't really mind tho,
a 'thank you' is enough for me.
A title is not a recognition of what you've done,
it comes with responsibility.
I don't think I am good enough to handle those things.
People always say to me,
oh, you'll forever be unready.
True.
But I have my personal experiences,
I know myself well to determine
whether I am ready or not for this responsibility.
Really,
I don't mind sacrificing my time and energy
to do certain things.
But I don't do it for a title.
I do it because I am sincere to do it,
I love doing it.
I enjoy doing it.
It is just my thing
to do something without demanding
for recognitions.
&
If you forgot
or didn't know;
I live by this principle.
"I don't want my presence to be applauded,
but my absence to be felt."
Dont forget to get enough rest okay..
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