1 litre of tears - not hormonal (maybe)

 Last week has been a very stressful week for me and I never thought I could cry that much.

I was literally sobbing and cursing in the air because I was so stressed out.

People could act so inhuman, ridiculous and have almost zero level of empathy 

and the pressure and act of bully they inflicted on me

had impacted my life, my health.

The last time I was bullied was during my college years

and the bullies were one year older than me.

This time, it's the corporate company

and they are at the same age as my parents,

but acting foolishly.

Sometimes I feel like they did it on purpose,

they exerted extra pressure on me because I had no choice

to leave the company due to my bond

and I have no RM1mil in my bank account that can be sacrificed

to escape those loaf of bread.

People overload me with work,

they ignore my health condition (yes, I'm still not in the best condition to put up with all these shits)

and they talk down to me like I have no knowledge at all.

Literally, talking to me like I'm a two-year-old girl.

What's worse was, I stood up.

I told them, nope this is not my job.

But their response was I just need to stay put

and do them and I was being ridiculous for not wanting to do it.

I have addressed this matter to HR and yet,

they haven't gotten back to me.

They left me in complete silence for almost one month.

Sometimes, I feel like I was being too negative about it,

but I'm just a human and I was being devalued

and people in power were treating me like I'm a piece of shit.

Wow, sorry for being extra negative in this post

but I didn't name any individual and

I just want to let this out of my system.

May Allah protect us all from this kind of people.

I always believe that doa orang teraniaya will be granted.

This is definitely a huge test for me,

because of my health limitation and the situation that I'm put in.

I think I will not be this stressed if people can be more understanding

and empathic.

This is also a great lesson for me,

to not treat others this way if I ever get the chance to climb up

the leadership ladder,

which is an almost low chance in this company

because of the glass ceiling.

Again, so sorry for being so negative

but I really hope things will get better.