Hard time to fit in...

Hey guys, 

these days I am facing the biggest trouble in my life!

That's to be able to fit in.

I do have friends, they're super awesome

but I don't really make friends with the one that's in the same class as mine.

Tutorial to be exact.

Everyone seems to be idk

or it's just me feeling that...

And tbh, that's not me AT ALL!

I used to be the friendly kind of girl,

can fit in any conversation 

and do what you should do to mingle around.

But this time,

all the skills went out of the window.

wow that expression was used only in debate

but 

I won't be joining debate this year.

I will try another year

but now I am joining Model United Nation

which is so far hella awesome!

I don't go as delegation,

because I face trouble with my visa.

But I run as staff,

photography staff!

It's way different that what I used to join right?

But we'll see how it goes and will try to 

FIT IN where I can...

I personally think that there's something holding my back now,

like I don't be myself

or I am not comfortable in being me here...

We'll see.

Maybe it takes time, maybe or maybe I just change.

I mean, people change, right?

Or I don't get to find that one friend that I can be super comfortable with.

This feeling sucks, it feels like I am back to square one,

ugh and if you guys had ever been to boarding school,

this feels exactly like being a form 1 girl lol.

I heard about this kind of problems back then, 

from seniors,

but I don't believe it,

but shoooot it's just so true!

Is it because the culture or is it because 

I feel intimidated by them being so outspoken(?)

Oh yeah,

I just couldn't find the right clique and the right circle of friends.

I miss my fellow Amigas, gosh.

and I definitely miss my family +1.

After all, it's Eid Adha tomorrow

and when everyone's having rendang,

I will just be looking from my screen,

that's awful man.

To even think of it, I feel like crying.

But I chose this path, right? 

Gotta face it *muscle up* lol

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