Poor kid in Canada

I had to request for cheque books from RBC.

So I went to the bank and the front officer

explained to me all the procedure.

I was oh okay,

so the price for the cheque book is $XX.

And my bank account in chequing acc is only $XX.

Certainly not enough to pay for that.

I looked so miserable.

So to cover it up,

I told her,

I was waiting for my allowance from Malaysia.

And she looked relief.

"Oh this kid wasn't that poor."

But really,

I only had $XXX of money that I can spend for

3 months and I took as many paid surveys as I could.

I restricted myself from eating outside,

I didn't cook fancy food as frequent as I did before.

It's all because of one mistake;

miscalculating my budget.

Or overbudget.

Lol.

Now you see why am I not an accountant, right?

There's this part of me,

I couldn't say no.

When you're the only one abroad,

people keep asking you to buy this and that for them.

So I did.

Without thinking of what should I eat and how should I survive,

because I know I can.

Their desires are more important than my need.

The concept is wrong,

but it just gives me some kind of happiness.

I rather spend my money on other people than myself.

The only time that I couldn't tolerate

is when I really want to travel.

I can buy for you all of the things you want,

but please do not ask me to stop traveling.

On top of all the 

eat only once a day thing,

be vegetarian etc,

this happened.

You can see what's inside the iphone

This just happened, I didn't drop it

I am a poor kid, remember?

I could just buy myself an iphone the moment I arrived in Canada.

But I didn't, because my need and my desire don't matter.

I can survive with this iphone :)

 I taped it with tape 

It is back to normal!

I am a strong believer that

if I try making others happy,

and prioritize others' happiness over mine,

I can be a better human

and be as happy as them.

I don't beg for new phone from my parents,

because if I did,

I would trouble them, and

God knows how could they survive 

when they have to allocate budget for me,

just because of my unnecessary need.

I can survive,

I will survive.

I am a survivor.