Circle of Friends

I still remember one of

the essay titles that I had to write

when I was SSP:

"As we grow older, our circle of friends becomes smaller."

This is a sad truth that I have to admit.

Well, 

you may say in university,

you have all the opportunity to

create networking with people etc.

But in my case,

yeah I do have all the opportunity,

you name it.

But they're just my contacts,

not friends that you can rely on.

My statement sounds bias,

then again,

it's made merely based on how I feel.

I hardly talk to most of my high school friends,

I feel bad about it.

It's not that I don't want to,

it's just that I don't have time to.

Maybe if I could meet them in person,

we could have hours long conversation.

Oh,

I was in debating team back then,

and people kept on saying how those people

will stick to me till the very end.

Aha,

you got me there.

I hardly keep in touch with any of them.

Was it just me or it happened to everyone else?

When putting all of these into perspectives,

I think, 

I am a terrible friend.

I spoke to them when I wanted to.

When I was busy, I even forgot to reply the conversation that I started.

Thus, I couldn't blame them for forgetting me

on my special days, could I?

I should mend my relationship with those I used to befriend with,

but as for now,

I should appreciate those who still value me,

even though I don't deserve their love.

To my fellow friends,

I still remember you in my prayer.

I know Allah is taking care of you, wherever you're :)

xo,

A.